This Sunday will be a year since my sweet husband popped the question.  :)  I have spent the morning filled with reflective thoughts over the last year.  It has been filled with some of the highest highs and some REALLY difficult stuff. 

Sometimes I get so stuck in the gross of life that I forget to see the wonderful rainbow above my head and thank the Lord that the rain stopped... I forget to give him credit for the good stuff and end up swelling on the muck.  And, i dare say, that some of the "muck" is probably just mud that I have dwelt on so long that it is putrid and it is time for me to let go and move away from the stench.  However, I have found that this particular feat is much more difficult than I ever thought it would be.

Then I look around at friends who are walking through some really dark valleys, and how they are still so positive.  They are full of hope and faith and drive to complete their journey.  That is when I realized that I am more responsible for my current state than any of those not-so-great experiences last year. 

SO, today I will attempt to move a little further away from all that.  Mourn that which should be mourned and start paying attention to the things in my life that should be celebrated!

I find that even just starting to think positively, I find that I am so happy. I feel so SO blessed in my marriage.  I truly do not have anything in my life to be discontent about.  My husband cherishes me, spoils me, provides for and encourages me.  We have a nice apartment, that is so close to my work.  We are healthy.  Have wonderful families that love and support us. 

Wow...  so very rich.

Thank you, Lord, for your goodness to me.  You are so so good.

Today, I am contemplating change in my life.  You know, I believe that God has a master plan for my life that is full of good, bountiful, wonderful things.  Sometimes I wonder if I have taken a detour and am on the service road.  With all the stop lights and the people who pull out in front of - or on top of you - rather than on the tollway...

Today is the day that I am on the service road.  Looking for the on ramp to the tollway.  Wondering if I missed the entrance ramp God had in mind for me, or if I am, in fact, where I am supposed to be.

I guess I have to wait and see.